Victoria half marathon
Vancouver Rock N' Roll half marathon
The bad news: it has now been a month since I have completed the Vancouver half and have spent the time moving to a new basement suite, involving lots of cleaning, heavy lifting, etc. Between the move and the half marathons, I managed to hurt my lower back and my right hip a bit. Due to this I have not run or worked out since the last run, which has left me rather... listless is the best way to describe it I guess. I have recovered mostly, injury wise, but all this time has got my mind wandering and wondering about all the things I want to change in life, but am lost as to the direction...
I am stalled out, stuck and stuttering...
I like my job, mostly, but I cannot/do not want to do it long term. I am doing it right now chiefly for the purpose of funding my husband's schooling, that he may do the job he loves: Veterinary technician. He absolutely loves it. I see him beam when he gets home. I want that. I need that.
How do I get that??
I'll start with a list (yup list lady right here, slightly obsessive with them)
Good Qualities:
- People person: good at reading people/communication/enjoy engaging people
- Reliable: show up to work early, hate letting people down
- Love the outdoors, and green things in general
- Love animals (allergic to cats unfortunately)
- Creative: poetry, cooking, baking, love music (useless at making any)
- Love dogs in particular but have also cared for sheep and chickens as a kid
- Good work ethic (work hard but sometimes have issue with chronic tendonitis in wrist)
- generally good-natured
Bad Qualities:
- Anxious to please/fear of failure/fear of confrontation (getting better on these three!)
- Am an introvert with extrovert tendencies (it can confuse people a lot: I am naturally introverted but work happily in very interactive environment, love socializing with a small group of friends but need down time between events to recuperate)
- Can be forgetful, especially when anxious
- willing to do some schooling for new job, but not lots. (already did about 3ish years in general studies and then 1 year to get the job I have now = student debt!!).
- etc. can't think of anything else in particular right now (sure there is more)
Any ideas people??
Some dream jobs for me are:
1. Freelance Gardener - no idea if I'd be any good at it, only pays well if you own your own business and have a degree (generally speaking).
2. Own/run a bookstore - no idea where to start, start up cost would be substantial (product cost and store rent) - I just really love books and would love to share them with others (old/new books and fun nick knacks).
3. Dog walker/runner - Now that I have realized a love for running/exercise, and have always had a love for all breeds of dog, I would love to follow in the footsteps of one lady who started her own business running dogs. my problem: I live in a area where 99% of of people walk their own dogs, and have no desire to move downtown where people would actually need a dog walker (My hubby and I want to move further into the countryside).
I know that these are each radically different from each other, and the only thing that connects them is creativity and freedom. How do I get that? ugh.
I cannot pinpoint one single job or one single skill that I have that points me in one direction.
I need to run again
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